I had jobs in the past, but they rarely lasted very long. If I was required to stand up and move, it would be ok. But I NEVER managed to hold down a "sitting" job (cause I would always fall asleep). One time I had a gig in some high tech plant where I sat most of the time. I would wake up at 5 AM (they started early) and would constantly fall asleep on the damn machine. I didn't last there long.
Right now I am getting my shit together again. Getting back on the CPAP after a period of not being able to sleep with it. I finally can write code again and am back to myself. But I always have this fear of falling asleep at the desk.
Like, I know CPAP (and maybe armodafinil) is not negotiable for me. It's not an improvement to my life - it's a requirement to have one. But I always have this anxiety that in some point in time, life will throw a curve ball that will make me fall off the CPAP for a week or two. I then will start falling asleep on my desk and risk losing my job.
Is it normal to have such fragile health? When my sleep is on point, I can work for 14 hours a day and like it. But it is so easy for me to fall of the wagon. If too much light outside is getting into my bedroom at night, if the AC doesn't make the room cold enough, if I didn't get enough hours of therapy from my CPAP - my productivity goes to the shitter.
I know life has no guarantees and chaos is inevitable. But I would like to be more resilient to chaos. Going from 100 to 60 is manageable. Going from 100 to 0 is not. And I would like to know how to make my declines less steep.
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