I was diagnosed 3 or 4 years ago but never really bothered with CPAP because the face mask just kept me awake for ages when I was tired and it was just intolerable. I'm going to try it again now because I'm beyond desperate and if I didn't have people that cared about me I'd just kill myself because I'm just done with the tiredness and fatigue. I'm 22 and I've had symptoms for half of my life. Fuck that shit, it's ruined everything. I dropped out of school because I was too tired to function there, can't work more than a couple of days a week, the whole thing is a curse.
I literally can't remember what it feels like to not be tired, I can't function mentally because of brain fog, and my life has been irreparably damaged so early on. I had such potential, being within the top 10 in my age group countrywide in 2 different sports as a teenager, even after my symptoms began. I had an IQ within the top 1.5%. As my symptoms worsened, I feel like I'm incapable of physically functioning and I feel like I'm an actual retard because my brain doesn't even work anymore. I'm now pretty much a NEET who sleeps and watches Netflix all day.
Commitment to CPAP longer than I tried before is my only hope, and even still so many people say it takes years to benefit them if it even works at all. I'm fucked. Even with the people that say it works for them, a lot of them don't feel completely better. From how it looks here I've got maybe a 15% chance of functioning normally again.
Will somebody please give me some sort of hope and tell me my life isn't completely ruined?
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